"And that's part of it. There are never ever simple explanations for things. I talk to John, because he knows me and he's seen what it is I deal with all the time. Tahiri's known me long enough to begin with, and add in that she's from about the same time, Rose knows about balancing a job with everything else... It doesn't take explanation, and no one's going to tell me I'm not doing it right. It's just easier sometimes." And she felt bad about that, but it was how it was.