Abandoned Warehouse of Jedi-ness and Issues, Wednesday morning [NFB]

[sith_happened]

Anakin didn't look behind him once as he stalked from the classroom, through town, and over to Rey's warehouse that was still undergoing major obstacle course renovation. Not breaking stride, Anakin unlocked the door, hopped over the quicksand trap just beyond it, and used the Force to scoop up all of the squirrels and woodchucks inside and firmly deposit them outside with one sweep of his cloaked arm.

The woodchucks in particular looked a little shocked at how quickly they'd been unilaterally relocated. Anakin didn't care. He had much bigger things on his mind than wayward rodents with strange affection for passing along gossip.

He'd always known his choices would catch up to him, and that he and Ahsoka would have to stop the passive-aggressive digs and avoidance eventually. This flavor of conversation had gone badly with Luke, with Leia, with Jaina, and had turned into...well...actual murder with Obi-Wan.

He was hoping that party wouldn't repeat itself.

Satisfied that they were alone and unmonitored, Anakin finally turned back to face his former apprentice. "You have things to say."

Or yell. Or throw. Possibly all three.

[OOC: For Ahsoka and great SP justice. Soooooooooooooooooo NFB.]

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[snipsnspecks]

If Ahsoka hadn't been watching him (and wasn't, you know, a Jedi), she probably would've missed the quicksand. As it was, she flipped over it but was still pretty annoyed.

"Oh, I have plenty to say. So much I don't even know where to start."

[sith_happened]

"Most people start asking why," Anakin sad.

[snipsnspecks]

"I already asked you why," Ahsoka said. "If that answer then was a lie, I don't want to know.

"How, Anakin? How could you kill our family, go along with making our men do it. They trusted you. We all trusted you"

[sith_happened]

Anakin closed his eyes. "I know you did. I wish I could say there was any rational thought behind my choices then blind but it was mostly rage."

[snipsnspecks]

Well, that answer wasn't going to help any of Ahsoka's issues.

"Who were you so angry at, Anakin?"

[sith_happened]

"Everyone," Anakin said, finding the floor of the warehouse intensely fascinating. "Mostly myself."

[snipsnspecks]

"And you just decided to make that everyone else's problem too? Despite everything you ever taught me about being a Jedi? That you actually started lecturing me about on Malachor?"

And just give her a few years to pick over that too.

[sith_happened]

"Well. I was a Jedi who got married in secret. The Chosen One who destroyed the Jedi Order. I am a giant hypocrite," Anakin said.

[snipsnspecks]

"Well, at least you realise that," Ahsoka said dryly. "I mourned you, you sleemo."

[sith_happened]

That was awkward, and the pause before Anakin could come up with a reply was really, really long.

"I'm sorry," he said, "but I realize that's not nearly enough."

[snipsnspecks]

"No, it's not," Ahsoka agreed. "I'm glad you're not dead, I'll never not be happy you're alive, but it would be a whole lot simpler if you had died when I thought you did."

[sith_happened]

"I tried very hard to kill the Anakin parts off," Anakin replied quietly. "I know that gets very...metaphorical and full of Jedi poodoo...but Obi-Wan wasn't wrong about the Dark Side. It consumed me utterly and I let it. I wanted it to."

[snipsnspecks]

"I'd hope you were treating it metaphorically," Ahsoka said, more sympathetically than her words sounded. "Because pretending you were two separate people sounds more like an attempt to use one of Master Kenobi's rhetorical exercises to avoid responsibility."

Oh, Ahsoka, you have no idea about Obi-Wan's rhetorical exercises when it came to this situation. No idea.

[sith_happened]

"I was absolutely avoiding responsibility--" damn you, Truth Day, "--but I couldn't be Anakin and do what I did all of those years."

You know, the mass genocide. Things like that.

[snipsnspecks]

Things like that.

"And you didn't take it as a sign you shouldn't be doing those things?"

Ahsoka Tano, possessor of too much belief in Anakin's good sense.

[sith_happened]

"No," Anakin said softly. "I just gave into the rage. I had so much rage."

[snipsnspecks]

"Oh, Anakin."

You couldn't say anything when you had too many things to articulate. Take that, Truth Day.

[sith_happened]

Anakin wrapped his arms around his chest and turned away. "And so I let it destroy everything that you would recognize."

[snipsnspecks]

"Except the sense of drama."

She loved you Anakin, but seriously.

[sith_happened]

"Well, the Sith have a reputation to uphold," Anakin said.

[snipsnspecks]

"Maybe, but you've always been this dramatic." If Ahsoka was being force to tell the truth, this was a marginally safer topic. "You had a reputation for it. Our whole lineage, actually."

[sith_happened]

"Double white sabers isn't exactly subtle," he agreed.

[snipsnspecks]

"More or less so than changing your Padawan's to match yours?"

And neither of them even knew about Sabine's stint with the Darksaber

[sith_happened]

"Oh, definitely more," Anakin said airily.